if you only knew

if you only knew what motivated me

you’d be terrified

you’d be nauseous

you’d think I was crazy

you’d say it will never work

you’d say I’ve gone too far

you’d say I was foolish

you’d say I did everything wrong

you’d say there’s no hope

you’d say I should stop now (and do what? I’d never get ahead)

you’d say I messed up

you’d say my future was ruined

you’d call me delusional

you’d say there’s no hope

you’d say I’m a slave

you’d say all this and more

let me tell you my secret:

you’d be wrong.